Exhaustion-Driven Writing

It’s been a busy day, folks.

I am utterly exhausted, but for a wonder that exhaustion is both physical and mental. I’m used to being physically exhausted; there’s no escaping that with my career. But I’ve also been writing and plotting all day, and that will tire me out as well.

I wrote a 7-page short and sent it for my players so they’d have context for the next few sessions. I’ve begun writing chapters for the Sidewinder and the Dresden Holmes story. I wanted to get one of my Postal Living essays written, but I’m stupidly tired and randomly falling asleep in my chair while I type.

I know, I know. I’m going to bed. Goodnight, all.

Side-Arc Plotting, Chapter Updates, and Future Essays

It’s very high praise when the players of your RPG campaign show investment in their characters. When they continuously ask questions about motivations, personal goals, or help with background details, you feel like they are enjoying the story as much as you do writing it for them.

But I consider it a personal compliment to the game-writing when players look at the schedule and request side-arc sessions and background-development games. The players are being engaging and thoughtful with their choices, which is an awesome moment to witness.

I suppose it should be noted that I’ve never liked power-gamers or players whose only goal was to mess with the campaign details. I don’t mind chaos if it isn’t done with malicious intent. If I’m going to take the time to write up plots, I’d like to see my investment rewarded.

With that, I’ll probably be writing up a side-arc or two this evening. There are a few details I’ve wanted the players to explore, and if it’s done correctly, they’ll have a great payoff in later levels.

I’ve also noticed that when I don’t post about the various projects or shamelessly brag about my family (Ben’s showing an interest in mechanics and I’m woefully unprepared), I’m writing about the postal life. This is because of two things: I get a lot of the same questions by different people, and I do believe in writing about what you know.

I’ve been in this career long enough to be comfortable with the questions and figured I should expand on them somewhere. This seems like a good spot, so expect a “Postal Living” section to slowly grow. It should prove to be a fun project to whittle away at when I have an idea for it.

Lastly, I’ve uploaded Chapter 6 of the Sidewinder Story! It’ll be a while before I can get the next chapter up, but hopefully I’ll have it finished and uploaded sooner than my misgivings say. When I’ve finished Adventure 1 (working on the title), I’ll probably condense the pages to make navigation easier. Or I’ll mess up layout again. You know, one or the other. For anyone not sure where to go:

Sidenote: I’ve been getting a lot of traffic on this site recently, and I wanted say hello, welcome to everyone and apologize for the mess. Eventually, I’ll figure this thing out. Surely.

With that, I wish all of you a pleasant evening and a good night.

-JB Swift

The temptation of early morning writing prompts

There was a period of nearly ten years when I wasn’t making any serious effort at writing. I had thought, at the time, that since I had not made it on to the bookshelves before I was 25, I should focus on establishing my career in the post office. It’s a good job, it pays well, and I needed something more secure than contract labor or pizza delivery.

Of course, I did write D&D plots for campaigns. Those are, to me, relatively simple and straightforward. You listen to what the incoming party wants to try and tailor a story to their goals. If it’s a dungeon-crawl, you barely have any real work at story-writing at all; just go to the applicable encounter chart and throw in monsters.

There were, however, personal challenges I set up for myself. I knew I’d get moody and depressed if I wasn’t trying to make a story somewhere, so I went online for a list of one-line or setting-based writing prompts. Anything from “The Wizard Has the Wrong Book” to “High-Tech Peaceful Dystopia”. Nothing in those prompts were publishing-worthy and I knew it, but it gave me moments to practice and keep my skills (such as they are) in good form.

These days, I’m trying to get a couple stories written that could, if I handle it right, make it through the publishing hurdles. Couple that with this medication to help me focus, and I’m finally able to dedicate my effort and time (an hour, here or there) to genuine writing.

But the prompts never stop showing up, and they’re still too much fun to leave alone.

On my way in to work this morning, I overheard a nerdy conversation. I try to not be rude in those moments, but I heard a line that got my attention: “I want two guys sword-fighting on the wings of a biplane.”

Yes, I have several projects to work on already, but you just don’t let a line like that go to waste.

I’ll probably work up a small scenario with that prompt in mind. Already, I want the biplane in flight, the protagonist to be completely exasperated with their situation while the antagonist an upright and arrogant gentleman (it might be because of the WWI-ish feel, but I gave him a German accent in my mind), and the fight to have “Shippin’ Up To Boston” playing in the background. Because why not?

But that won’t be for a long while. I do have other works in progress, and I refuse to let myself be so distracted that they go the way of my earlier writings. I will, however, come back to this post to help me remember the prompt at a later date.

And with that, it’s time for the mail to run. Hoping you have an easy day, readers.

-JB Swift

Long shifts, Writing updates, and Daughters’ practice

I think the word for this week is going to be “ambitious”. I would not be surprised if by Saturday, I’ll be in bed and unconscious before the sun has fully set.

But I can’t say I didn’t see it coming or didn’t accept that it’d be a hectic week. It’s Spring Break week, and that means fewer coworkers (so more work for me and everyone else unable to get the week off) as well as time off for the kids from school. Just yesterday, I pulled a 12-hour shift and somehow stayed awake long enough to prep a quick meal for the next shift.

This doesn’t mean I can’t put in the effort needed to make the week worthwhile. For myself, I still need to get the next chapters for the Sidewinder story written and posted (Chapter 5 went up yesterday, so go read!) before Saturday. That’s my personal challenge.

But it’s also a big week for Hannah! The 5yr old is testing for her first sash (white) in Kung Fu this week! She’s been practicing, but like any perfectionist, she’s not sure if she’s ready. She is; she just doesn’t accept it for herself yet. Hopefully, she’ll remember what I’ve been telling her since she’s started trying out new hobbies: we don’t ask for her to be perfect, just that she puts in the effort and try her best.

With that, break time is over and it’s back to sorting mail and thinking over plots. Enjoy the day, readers.

-JB Swift

PS~ Just realized that while the chapter was uploaded (correctly, this time!) and is available for reading, it didn’t send out a notice that it had done so. So if you’re looking for it, here’s a link:

https://swiftscorner.wordpress.com/sidewinder-adv-1-chp-5/

Sidewinder Stories Updates!

I’ve gotten requests for the next chapters to be uploaded sooner than I normally would (normally would remember to, I’ll be honest), so I’ve uploaded Chapter 4 and I’ve scheduled Chapter 5 to go up in the morning of 4/18.

I’ll leave Chapter 4 here for reading. Fair warning: It needs an editor, and I’m terrible at that part of the writing trade. One day, I’ll get an editor.

And one day I’ll be a published writer. While we’re dreaming here.

Enjoy!

Star Wars RPG Adventure 1, Chapter 3 is up!

I have GOT to figure out a better title for these posts.

It’s taken me a while, but I’ve finally managed to get the chapter posted. There were a few problems with getting it in the right order (I still have no idea what I’m doing) but I think everything is now fixed and ready for reading.

Of course, now that I’ve said that, I would not be surprised if I go back to it in a few hours and I find it looking strange. Such is my life and the Internet. Enjoy!

Avoiding Writing Work with a What-If (Part 1)

The kids are abed, the evening chores are done, and I have no responsibilities for the next 6 hours. I could use this opportunity to continue plucking away at the game story, or to clean up the outline on the science fiction novel idea, but I know myself. I’m doing my best to ignore the exhaustion from the day job and will, most likely, fall asleep typing at my desk. I’ll be nudged awake by my wife to get myself to bed.

So, with that in mind, I’m accepting that I won’t get any real work done tonight. I’m going to play with a “What-If” scenario! Me being a Star Wars nerd, it’ll be Star Wars themed, of course.

I’ve had a “What If?” question in the back of my mind for over a decade now, and I’ve pondered on the possible outcomes. It’s an Expanded Universe (Legends) scenario, so if you haven’t gotten into that universe, I apologize for seeming confusing. I haven’t explored Disney’s canon yet, and while I applaud them giving Star Wars screentime and interesting stories, I’m more comfortable in the books of my childhood.

“What If Thrawns’ Clone Survived?”

For context: Grand Admiral Thrawn was killed in 9ABY at the “Battle of Bilbringi”, by a knife wound given by his bodyguard Rukh. 10 years later, Luke Skywalker and Mara Jade find out that Thrawn had set up a singular cloning tank, on a far-off planet called Niruan, with his own clone inside, set to decant ten years after his death. In the story, the clone was killed when Skywalker and Jade destroyed the tanks’ generator to help them escape a flood chamber.

For this scenario, let’s say that the clone had awakened three days before Skywalker and Jade entered the chamber. Upon decanting, the clone was startled to find himself alive and full of memories, but without the mental context to sort them. He was alone, in a deep cavern, and confused.

His movement upon de-canting provoked the guardian programming built into the chamber. A face appeared in a hologram, declaring “Who disturbs the sleep of Syndic Mitth’raw’nuruodo?” The face stared at the clone, waiting.

The clone took a deep breath, calming his thoughts, when a memory that was not his own struck. That was a coded question, he knew, and he had the answer without realizing it.

“Syndic Mitth’raw’nuruodo has awakened and no longer needs your stewardship.” The hologram faded away and several gears whir in the background, as traps and security measures were disabled. The computer system in one corner flickered as it came to life, beckoning the clone to it. He saw that the screen had a pending message for him. He pressed the key to begin playing it.

He found himself facing another hologram: deceased Grand Admiral Thrawn, standing with his back straight and hands clasped behind him, looking down at the clone. “If this message was activated, it is because I was killed ten years prior, and my clone is now alive.”

The hologram turned and faced the clone, almost as if the program were sentient, or that Thrawn would know where his clone would prefer to stand. “You are my replacement, my backup plan. You are going to continue my work. I trust you will make yourself ready.” The hologram gestures out, taking in the entire cavern. The clone looked around to realize that it had the makings of a modest apartment, furniture wrapped in storage cloth and set to the side. “You will find everything you need here to make yourself comfortable, and you will learn everything you can about the last ten years. You flash-learning was expertly programmed, but you may need time for everything to settle. You will take this time.”

The clone frowned, thinking about the memories floating about in his consciousness. Yes, it was there, but Thrawn was correct that it needed time to firm in his mind. “Are you an interactive interface or simply a recording?” the clone asked, slightly disturbed that his voice perfectly matched the hologram.

“This is a limited interface,” Thrawn said. “A program of Chiss design. We programmed the flash-learning you were given into a hologram, so we would be able to expect your questions and give reasonable answers. What is it that you want to know?”

“You said I was created to continue your work,” the clone said. He tapped the side of his head, realizing for the first time that his hair could reach the small of his back. Ten years of clone growth, he supposed. “I do not know what that work is, yet.”

The hologram gave a bitter smile. “My work was the safety of our people,” he said. “I took on the task of ensuring the safety and well-being of the galaxy, however those concepts should be brought about.”

“How will I continue that work?” the clone asked. “That seems to be a monumental task.”

(And here it was that I fell asleep at my desk, woke up to wander to bed, and have now woken up for the day-off, so we’ll finish this section.)

“You will continue my work,” Thrawn said, still smiling, “by at first, learning. The knowledge is already there, but you have the time, for now, to fully accept it. I suggest you get started.”

The lights in the cavern brightened until the chamber was fully lit, and the clone could see a small refresher station set in an alcove. Sighing, he went over to it and made himself look presentable, though he left his hair at shoulder-length, deigning to wait for a droid or properly trained work to handle that.

“Very good,” Thrawn said from the computer station. “Once you’ve established your quarters, you will begin the queued programs I have waiting for you. I suspect that the last ten years have been harrowing for the galaxy, so we should get started soonest.”

The clone nodded at this and, with the assistance of housekeeping droids hidden away in their own niches, set up his quarters. It was a couple hours before his new home was ready, and the cooker had a meal prepared for him. With his needs met, he went to the computer and began reading up on the history of the galaxy.

Where the Witch’s House Stood

When I was around 12 or 13 years old, I would explore the neighborhoods around my home, either on foot or by bike. There was shortcut road I liked to use to visit one of my friends that was heavily forested on one side. I always saw it as just undeveloped land left alone in a small neighborhood.

Except for one house, almost hidden behind a veil of trees. This was a very simple wooden house, although it conformed to Southern desires and had a giant front porch.

This was where the Witch lived.

My friends from the neighborhood never looked at the house or acknowledged its existence. To them, it was part of the scenery. For my teenage brain, it was something to explore.

The property was absolutely covered in vine growth, with small patches of the wooden structure jutting out to remind you that yes, it was a building. The “yard”, such as it was, was a patch of dark soil with tree stumps cut down for sitting.

Being the youth whose manners were beaten into him by nuns in a 1990’s Catholic school, I knocked on the door of what I was assuming to be an abandoned house. An old lady answered the door.

She was old, much older than I could really guess at. But she was active, bustling around her house, which for all the exterior appearance, was remarkably clean. She offered me a cup of tea and asked what I was doing there. I told her the truth, that I was exploring and wanted to know what the place was about.

She explained that she was a witch and a historian. She pointed out the shelves and shelves and shelves of books she kept, all of them to do with the history and legends of the world. She brought one down that detailed the fables of Ireland, introducing me to the Tuath Dé (or Tuatha Dé Danaan, depending on where you read it) and Tír na nÓg. She told me about the ancient wars wrapped in those legends. She also said I should investigate those legends and see what they would tell me about myself.

After what was probably a couple hours, she told me to go on home, thanking me for the visit. I had tried to visit her a couple more times later on, but she never answered her door. A year later, the house was gone. Now, 20 years later, the lot stands vacant.

I always think of that old Witch when I drive down that street. I wonder if she enjoyed the day she could teach a young man the stories of (unbeknownst to him at the time) his ancestry. I hope she did. She had a strong influence on how I approach writing with legendary material.

Life of a small-town Postman trying to be a functioning adult

As of time of writing, I’m coming down from my new ADHD medication. I’m hoping I’ll have enough focus left to me to get one of my short story projects finished, but this was something I really wanted to write about.

Also to display my amateur photography skills, but really I’ve just wanted to get these notes down. This post will go up in the morning (if I set it up right) so if I get any more photos, I can add to it.

It was an interesting day, to say the least.

After a decade of working with my ADHD, including figuring out coping mechanisms and battling the feeling of uselessness, I went to the doctor. I told him my problems and that I wanted to be put back on Adderall. For a grown man of 36, that’s both slightly dubious and a bit humiliating. After all, I stopped taking medication in my early 20’s. Haven’t I figured out how to deal with it by now? Shouldn’t my own methods and techniques be enough to get through the day?

The answer is no, and not really. I haven’t dealt with it; I’ve just done the best I could with an inability to pay attention or focus. Yes, writing notes down helps, but I don’t always remember to jot down my notes, or have the time to do so in the bustle of activity that is adulthood. I have figured out how to force myself into a state of hyper-focus, where my attention narrows down to one thing at a time, but that doesn’t always help. It also makes for some intense headaches after a while.

Pictured: a stressed out mailman coming down from new meds and apparently a halo of hair kept in humid pollen air for 9 hours.

The doctor checked my blood pressure, noting it was high, and laughing when I said ‘Of course my blood pressure is high, I’m a letter monkey for the government’. But I managed to get my blood pressure down consistently enough that medication would be safe for me.

And so, I’ve been on meds for the first time in 10 years. Felt like having a goddamn superpower, being able to listen to a conversation, keep track of it, and remember it soon after. I felt like an actual adult, not having to battle my own consciousness to stay on a given subject or task.

I was able to get through my day job all right, and I’m feeling the coming-down happening in the evening. I’m curious if this would help me during my writing attempts. It’d be nice to not be scatterbrained for an hour and only getting 400 words down. I’ll find out either on Sunday (after chores) or during my non-scheduled day (postal talk for day off) and will probably talk about it in a Twitter thread.

Always cool to see this.

Not only could I focus on getting my work done, I could even indulge myself in getting pictures of the scenery I go through.

For such a small town, there is a lot of personality put into my home. Everywhere you go, there are little pockets of artwork, or dedication to lawn decoration, or just something that’ll make the postman pause before dropping off the mail and appreciate the visual they get. But that’s not always the case, unfortunately. For every artwork, there’s a neglected building.

I’ve been driving past this particular property occasionally for the last couple months. Last time I saw it, the damages had worsened. I’m hoping the owners or whoever later buys the property has it knocked over. I remember how I was as a kid, and I can promise you that children will want to explore the place, including the upstairs. Good luck stopping them from trying.

That had to be an intense fire.

Now, it’s been a couple weeks since I was out there, and we’ve had some rough storms lately. It’s possible that the weather already knocked the place down. I’ll find out next time I go there.

10-year old me would’ve seen this as a great adventure, until it got dark. (36-yr old me would, too, but I have to be ‘responsible’)

Of course, in any small town that is half-rural, you’ll find little pocket neighborhoods hidden away in heavily-wooded areas. Driving past this area on the highway, you’d think it was just undeveloped forest and thickets. But there are houses scattered around, with single-lane roads winding around tree roots, bayous, and man-made ravines. Thankfully, this neighborhood was designed for ‘mounted delivery’ so I could drive up to a mail box. I would not have preferred to walk this route.

You’re never certain what you’ll find out in these pocket neighborhoods. They’re thriving communities with shops, tradesmen, farms, bars, and of course, churches.

I couldn’t find anything to identify this particular church, but I have to admit that I was almost finished delivering in this area. I was keen to move on to my own route and finish the day. I’m not too keen to work this route again; driving an LLV down those steep, narrow roads is terrifying. I have mad respect for the regular carrier who handles the route every day.

That said, when I do go walking around other neighborhoods, I’ll spot things that will either make me marvel at ingenuity, or I’ll want to play Fallout 4 again.

Now that’s just cool. Ain’t sitting on it, but it’s cool.
I wonder if I could make a settlement out of that. Probably not, but a fun thought experiment

Finally, if there’s one thing I love seeing while out on my mail routes, it’s the animals. I’ve been on my walking route for nearly 10 years and I’ve met nearly every pet or surviving stray. But someone eventually gets a puppy and I just have to say hello if I have the time.

(I usually have the time, or I figure out how to make the time, by thunder)

Meet Noel, newest puppy on the route!

That concludes my little guided tour of the postal life. As a reward for giving me your attention: a cat picture!

I don’t know his name. I call him Mrowr.

April is proving to be my worst writing month, for good reason

I always say that the Heavy Season for the mail is October-April. It’s when our parcel counts skyrocket and our letters double or triple. This is why it’s always difficult for me to find writing time during these months, as I’ve said before.

But April, the last month of the season, always feels like a personal letdown.

It’s happened consistently enough that you’d think I’d have prepared for it by now, but you’d be wrong. April is the final month of tax season in the US, and it’s also when the most people move house. Maybe not nationally, but it is for my little route in small-town Louisiana. Upwards of 80 people, individuals or families, change their mailing address in this one month alone. It’s my job to make sure that they get all of their mail delivered correctly, even if that means helping them fix their mistake.

(Sometimes, they move only 2 or 3 houses down the street, and this drives me insane. I’m a creature of habit, so seeing the same name on 2 addresses for 1 street is hella confusing.)

What this does to me is to wear me down physically (as usual) and also mentally (for a change) at the post office. Normally, I’d welcome such a change, since the majority of the day is spent being so bored that I make sound effects while walking just to break the monotony. I’ve been on my route for so long that even the more aggressive dogs have accepted me and stopped growling.

Unfortunately, this means that my writing suffers. I’ve said before that winter is a rough time for me to hit word count goals, but the final month of the Heavy Season is just abysmal.

I’m hoping that, as the last of the tax mail goes out and the parcel count lowers to a manageable (to me and my writing desire) goal, I’ll be able to both put up more posts here and finish out a project. I do have more short stories, namely the Star Wars adventures. I told the players I’d get Adventure 1 written this month.

That’s a lofty goal, but damn it’d be nice.